Should I Stay or Should I go now?

Please, please, please don't message me trying to sway me one way or another. I don't mind talking about things, but trying to talk me into something is a whole different level.

I'm in this really hard place right now where the thought of church makes me cringe inside. I'm tired, and dead inside. I've said it to a couple of people while trying to figure out what's 'wrong' with me. I used to go to church on Sunday because it was the only day I would spend with God. And now, the opposite has happened - but not on purpose.

♫ Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An’ if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know! ♫

** Another post I never finished and posted.

I'm in a different place right now although sometimes I ask myself what's the point of church. Why do I go? What am I doing here?

I wasn't planning on just going to another church though. I love Tom & Nadine and everything they're about. I think they have a lot of wisdom and things I can learn from them. And the love they carry. That's what I want! So it wasn't an issue with my church. It was an issue with church in general.

I know there's a bigger picture with my relationship with God and I'm glad over time I've been able to cultivate that in my own home or car. But I know there's something bigger then myself, my own life, my own family.

I'm content in where I'm at...and at the same time I know there's something more.