Sarah: I wanted to take a minute to celebrate this amazing day. 28 years ago one of the most amazing women in the world was born. I don't know what I would do without my sister.Candice is the most selfless, compassionate, loving person. She truly makes the world a happier place. She is always there for me and always has been whenever I needed it. No matter how far away we are, we will be close. I'm so proud to not only call her my sister, but my best friend. I hope you have the best birthday yet. You DESERVE it!! I love you more than you'll ever know. Words will never be enough to express how thankful I am
Mommy: Continuation... 28 years ago TODAY at about 6:30 in the morning I went into the hospital to be induced - I was over 2 weeks late for my 1st baby- I was so excited that I barely slept- or maybe it was the Mexican food I ate lol
I had so many thoughts and emotions that I was so overwhelmed (but determined to hold it together and not curse my husband out in the delivery room like all of the stories I had heard ) lol
We arrived and they prepped me -they gave me a drug called pitocin which put you into labor- they didn't tell me it was almost immediate hard labor- the feeling was like the movie Alien- like something was going to rip out of your body- I was supposed to have her natural but there was nothing natural about that pain- MY GOD!!!
Speaking of God I wasn't very religious at the time but man did I learn how to pray fast! I made all of the usual " if you get me through this I will..." type of desperate promises that you make to God when you're in need. Lol
The labor was so hard that the spikes from the contractions were off the charts- no little peaks but lines that went to the top of the page across and then down- I remember that I kept saying "I still love you to John" because everyone said I would hate him haha! I remember them breaking my water which was weird and gross but at least I knew I was getting closer- every "inspection" was so freakin' painful as if you needed someone probing around during some of the most excruciating pain of your life!
Breathing was a joke and so was the focal point that they had you look at - mine was a little stuffed animal that I finally was like " forget it John- I can't look at that thing anymore-please get it out of my face"
I just looked at the tiny holes in the ceiling tiles and started counting them. Also there was a nice nurse who had beautiful blue eyes and sometimes I would look at them. She was wearing Jean Nate perfume and although I normally wouldn't mind the smell- at this point it was making me nauseous - I was freezing- shivering felt like puking this was horrible!! And feeling like this being was going to explode out of my stomach- and yes I know where babies come from- lol
It was a military hospital so there were people being trained- I felt like the whole world had seen me naked- it was so humbling- although I was a twig and in shape (because I exercised right up until the end ha!) To be that disciplined again!! Still very embarrassing and an invasion of my privacy
Anyway ... Hours had passed by and I wasn't dilating fast enough - next thing you know everyone started panicking and I heard them saying C-section - I know it's pathetic but because I was doing this natural all I could think of is that this seems good to me as long as they "knock me out " this pain. would end. I asked what was going on and they said your baby is in fetal distress - the heart rate is dropping and we need to do an emergency C- section - I asked if they were going to " put me under " anesthesia and they said yes - I was relieved and scared. They were scurrying around panicked and that didn't make me feel so secure about what was going on but Hey- what choice did I have? Finally they told me to count backwards from 10 and I was out...
What I didn't know was that Candice was doing so bad that they had called a priest for last rites because they didn't know if she would make it. She was bruised and purple- swollen - trying to come out but couldn't - the pressure had caused her heart rate to drop and I believe at one point the cord was around her neck -God this poor baby had been through so much!
I had woken up finally, my throat sore from the tube they put down it- and they said " it's a girl" I was like " that's nice" all dozey. When I finally got to hold her I thought she was the most beautiful girl in the world! This baby was a life changer- instantaneous love and adoration.
I wasn't going to nurse because I didn't want more pain-or my boobs to sag - yes - I was self centered then -lol
But Candice would not take the bottle so I ended up nursing- the best forced decision I ever made lol
The C- section was painful, the labor was a nightmare, nursing was ouch! More pain- but it is true! All of it is forgotten when that love you feel for that baby invades your heart ️
So miraculous!!! So beautiful!!
Life!! Ahhh the wonder of it all.
I am sooooo thankful for that horrible / wonderful day!! My world was rocked and it began the journey to motherhood.
CaCandice Rose FowlerBorn. 4:30 pm Sept 4, 1985
7lbs 4 oz -20 and 1/4 inches long - I am soooo glad you were born. You have become such a magnificent person- a beautiful woman so caring, loving, compassionate, sweet ,generous, kind hearted etc etc
A true joy to be around. I love you my baby girl!!!
️
Have a Happy 28th Birthday!!!!
Cya in a little bit
I had so many thoughts and emotions that I was so overwhelmed (but determined to hold it together and not curse my husband out in the delivery room like all of the stories I had heard ) lol
We arrived and they prepped me -they gave me a drug called pitocin which put you into labor- they didn't tell me it was almost immediate hard labor- the feeling was like the movie Alien- like something was going to rip out of your body- I was supposed to have her natural but there was nothing natural about that pain- MY GOD!!!
Speaking of God I wasn't very religious at the time but man did I learn how to pray fast! I made all of the usual " if you get me through this I will..." type of desperate promises that you make to God when you're in need. Lol
The labor was so hard that the spikes from the contractions were off the charts- no little peaks but lines that went to the top of the page across and then down- I remember that I kept saying "I still love you to John" because everyone said I would hate him haha! I remember them breaking my water which was weird and gross but at least I knew I was getting closer- every "inspection" was so freakin' painful as if you needed someone probing around during some of the most excruciating pain of your life!
Breathing was a joke and so was the focal point that they had you look at - mine was a little stuffed animal that I finally was like " forget it John- I can't look at that thing anymore-please get it out of my face"
I just looked at the tiny holes in the ceiling tiles and started counting them. Also there was a nice nurse who had beautiful blue eyes and sometimes I would look at them. She was wearing Jean Nate perfume and although I normally wouldn't mind the smell- at this point it was making me nauseous - I was freezing- shivering felt like puking this was horrible!! And feeling like this being was going to explode out of my stomach- and yes I know where babies come from- lol
It was a military hospital so there were people being trained- I felt like the whole world had seen me naked- it was so humbling- although I was a twig and in shape (because I exercised right up until the end ha!) To be that disciplined again!! Still very embarrassing and an invasion of my privacy
Anyway ... Hours had passed by and I wasn't dilating fast enough - next thing you know everyone started panicking and I heard them saying C-section - I know it's pathetic but because I was doing this natural all I could think of is that this seems good to me as long as they "knock me out " this pain. would end. I asked what was going on and they said your baby is in fetal distress - the heart rate is dropping and we need to do an emergency C- section - I asked if they were going to " put me under " anesthesia and they said yes - I was relieved and scared. They were scurrying around panicked and that didn't make me feel so secure about what was going on but Hey- what choice did I have? Finally they told me to count backwards from 10 and I was out...
What I didn't know was that Candice was doing so bad that they had called a priest for last rites because they didn't know if she would make it. She was bruised and purple- swollen - trying to come out but couldn't - the pressure had caused her heart rate to drop and I believe at one point the cord was around her neck -God this poor baby had been through so much!
I had woken up finally, my throat sore from the tube they put down it- and they said " it's a girl" I was like " that's nice" all dozey. When I finally got to hold her I thought she was the most beautiful girl in the world! This baby was a life changer- instantaneous love and adoration.
I wasn't going to nurse because I didn't want more pain-or my boobs to sag - yes - I was self centered then -lol
But Candice would not take the bottle so I ended up nursing- the best forced decision I ever made lol
The C- section was painful, the labor was a nightmare, nursing was ouch! More pain- but it is true! All of it is forgotten when that love you feel for that baby invades your heart ️
So miraculous!!! So beautiful!!
Life!! Ahhh the wonder of it all.
I am sooooo thankful for that horrible / wonderful day!! My world was rocked and it began the journey to motherhood.
CaCandice Rose FowlerBorn. 4:30 pm Sept 4, 1985
7lbs 4 oz -20 and 1/4 inches long - I am soooo glad you were born. You have become such a magnificent person- a beautiful woman so caring, loving, compassionate, sweet ,generous, kind hearted etc etc
A true joy to be around. I love you my baby girl!!!
️
Have a Happy 28th Birthday!!!!
Cya in a little bit
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