A [beautiful] Work in Progress: 02.11

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Set Apart This Dream

I like when things like this happen.
I got a facebook post that made my day.

It was short and sweet but made a big impact on me.
This is what it said:

Jackie Komnick

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iU18VTPLdhM

i dont know why , but i listened to this song again and it reminded me of you . i have known this song for about a week , and i listened to it today and you popped into my head . i dont know why though ?
well i hope you had a good day today (:

I started my response to her "I've listened to this song many many times and I just felt like I was listening to it for the very first time. I got chills and waves of I don't even know but it was amazing. "

Here are the lyrics:

Close your eyes little girl
You're a princess now
You own this world
Twirling in your twirly dress [I actually still own a pink dress that I used to twirl around in my closet so this made me laugh]
You're the loveliest far above the rest
You build your castles in the skies
Stars reflecting off your eyes
And angels sing on silver clouds
And no one cries, screams, or shouts'

Oh set apart this dream
Oh set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream for me

Close your eyes pretty girl cause its easier when you brace yourself [I was writing a budget out for this month and upcoming year and planning different expenses right before I got this & it made me think of something else that I've been wanting to write/blog about: 'Not counting the chickens before they hatch'. So who knows what this year will bring but I plan on bracing myself for whatever that may be and TRY and remind myself that
God has a plan
Set your thoughts on a world far off
Where we only cry from joy

Oh set apart this dream
Oh set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream for me

[I just soaked in all of these next words as truth and it was good.]

Oh lovely and beautiful
Precious and priceless
You're so much more than you know
Heart of the purest gold
Pure clean and white as snow
Clothed in such splendor
Oh what a beauty for me.

Oh set apart this dream
Oh set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream for me

And the video/song ends with something like this:

You didn't come this far just to be plundered

here down your breath is your strength
Sleep in this haven
The king holds your favor
With love much greater you'll dream

[This last line really hit me.

I have been through a lot. Done stupid things but got back on my feet.

Someone prayed for me many many years ago and they said something along those lines. That I didn't go through different things for no reason. There was purpose in the pain.

And I think the reason I can't sing enough of God's love lately is because I know that it's EVERYTHING. It's the best foundation to have and I haven't quite grasped the depth, height and width of it all. So until I do I want to exchange as much of it with Him as I can. It'll take a lifetime but it'll be good :)

And I want to DREAM BIG.]

Ok I have to go make bagels for the boys now.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Bear Hands

1 Samuel 17:34-37 (The Message)

^34-37 David said, "I've been a shepherd, tending sheep for my father. Whenever a lion or bear came and took a lamb from the flock, I'd go after it, knock it down, and rescue the lamb. If it turned on me, I'd grab it by the throat, wring its neck, and kill it. Lion or bear, it made no difference—I killed it. And I'll do the same to this Philistine pig who is taunting the troops of God-Alive. God, who delivered me from the teeth of the lion and the claws of the bear, will deliver me from this Philistine."

Evan & I do this thing where we put a blanket over our heads and tell stories to each other. When it's my turn I usually use it to tell bible stories in my own words and the cool thing is that usually he'll tell the same story back to me once he hears it so I know he's really listening.

So today Tim joined us and Evan went first. He told us about Jesus and the storm and how he told it to go away. Next it was my turn. I began telling the story of David.

It went kind of like this:

Me: "There was a boy named David and he used to hang out in the fields with the sheep. His job was to protect and keep them safe from wild animals. (I would stress words to make the story more exciting haha) He would play his harp which is an instrument that goes like this: *ding, bling, bling, ding*

Tim: "But much better sounding" haha

Me: "Yea much prettier then what I just did :) One day when David was keeping an eye out for lions or bears so they wouldn't eat the sheep he saw one!! It was a...

Evan: "umm a BEAR!"

Me: "yea a bear was coming to eat the sheep! David said "oh crap"** (yea, I say that around my kids) David needed God's help. So he asked God to help him. Jesus gave him power and strength to kill it with his bare hands!

Evan: "umm - wait...I didn't know Jesus has Bear Hands!?!??"

That was as far as the story got because me and Tim laughed for a good 10 mins.

Near crying laughter.

So Evan thought Jesus had bear hands and gave them to David to use to fight the bear...haha

Tim: "I think we should clarify this all, Evan's going to think Jesus has bear hands. Evan, bare hands is when you have empty hands, with no weapons in them. That's called bare hands"

Evan: "I don't have weapons in my hands"

Tim: "so you have bare hands, you have empty hands"

Evan" You don't have weapons in your hands"

Tim: "so I have bare hands, nothing in them"

I guess next time I tell a story I should think about the way I word things, the context of what we're talking about and what phrases a 3 year old knows.

...Orrrr I could just keep telling my stories without thinking and see what else comes out of them! :)

Bear Hands haha Bare Hands

yes I'm still laughing

**oh yea and I know David didn't say 'oh crap' but I'm almost positive that the first time he ever killed a bear or lion he had at least a little fear. I think that's human nature.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

It's a Cold Cold Day...

Here are the thoughts I started writing out today that will hopefully transform into a full song someday soon. Ready for some run on sentences and rambling? Ok........ I was sitting on my couch looking out the window at all the snow thinking how cold it was which made me think of my dad and how much he hates the winter. And then I thought about how much my mom loves the sun which then lead to me thinking of them together and how much they've gone through and are still going through and how crappy everything's been for a while.

Sooooo I started singing this: [while I played F & C] [and I think a little Am]

"It's a cold cold day, It's a cold cold day, It's a cold cold day & I'm missing the sun"

And then I just started singing whatever I was thinking about - no rhyming necessary haha

When I was singing the first line over and over I knew sun could be a play on words for 'son' - Jesus - son of God. And then I thought about life experiences and how I know I wasn't the only one who felt... well actually DIDN'T feel Jesus at certain times of life even though I know He's always there. And it was kind of a sad moment. I then started singing "I miss the warmth of Your embrace" And as I was singing I thought about seasons and seeds and being underground...It was a whole lot of pictures and feelings and emotions. Too many at once that I couldn't organize my thoughts fast enough. I recorded every jumbled thing that came out of my mouth into my handy dandy iphone and then listened back and jotted it down in my notebook.

And that's where this status came from:

"Contemplating cold cold dark alone hidden days - covering & protection and missing the sun/son's warmth but seeing a glimpse of a bigger picture and the beauty of each season. I already feel warmer on this cold cold day..."

I started looking through winter and spring pictures on-line and came up with a visual outline to try and organize my thoughts and things I wrote down in my notebook and I posted them on this blog. Now I'm back here filling in the different thoughts and words that came out when I was playing guitar and singing.

I know it's a lot to scroll down but if you want to see more of the process, scroll on down!

It's a cold cold day 3x

& I'm missing the sun [son]